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There is one kid i know.. he's my ex-boyfriend.... he tried to kill himself by hanging himself.. thank god the road broke.. but he has permanate brain damage from lack of oxygen and can't talk... he will be forever cared for by other people.. he's only 19...
One of my REALLY good friends and one of his friends were going to shoot each other... the other kid pulled the trigger of the gun that was placed upto my friends temple.. but it jammed... it didnt go off... the kid dropped the gun and ran.. they havent talked since... my friend is ok psychicaly but emotionaly he will never be the same.. everytime he hears a gun go off or hears someone sayin that they are going to shoot themselves (jokingly or not) that day re-plays in his mind... he is very fortunate that he is alive and there is a reason that he is alive...
With me.. i didnt think that i was suicidal... cutting my wrists was a way to release stress and hurt.. but one day i cut too deep and i almost bled to death... i seen my life flash before my eyes.. it was a really scary thing to see... i thought that i was dead for sure until my cousin and her daughter came over and her 4 year old daughter (Kiffanee) found me lying on the bathroom floor... i will never forget the look of terror in her eyes... i was her Dusti... as soon as i seen Kiffanee i knew that i had something to live for... her mom came in, seen me and called 911 if it wasnt for them i would be dead for sure... I was in the hospital for a week and 2 days... i had to have a shit load of blood infusions and i have to go back for 4 years every 2 months to get a hiv test.. just because of the stupid mistake that i made..
suicide is something that you can never go back on... it's something that is a final choice... and if by chance you try but fail it's something that will haunt you forever... look at me i can't even touch a knife anymore.. they scare me to much... i think that there is other ways other then suicide... i know that once you've made up youer mind it's hard for anyone to change it.. belive me i know... but please PLEASE think about the effect that it will have on others...
If you want advice or just want to talk feel free to e-mail me or add me to your messanger.. i will talk to you and i will try to help you to the best of my knowledge...
i want to say i love you and i miss you to Star, Sunny, Mikole, Alex, Rian, and Kalley... i miss you guys so much i wish that you were here with me... i wish that you could of held on to life and relized that you had more to live for then to die for... may you all REST IN PEACE and i will see you later
LOVE ANGEL
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