1 !Poems of Hurt, Cutting, And Just Being A Teen! 1
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without even one line showing.
nobody knows just quite yet,
but soon enough they'll know i bet.
if i write it in a poem do you think they'll know?
that my life has changed since so long ago.
ive changed so much that the cuttings start,
with Xs scratched all over my heart.
i sit there day and night,
with or without any light.
time can cut away at your life,
deeper and deeper with just a knife.
razors work well as i may know,
but if you cut make sure not to go slow.
i only just started a day ago,
but still that's something no one knows.
i wish they knew,
i really do.
but there's no way for me to say,
things just aren't going my way.
will you hear my cries throughout the walls
cause death comes and to me it calls
'come to me and the pain shall end
your bruised and broken heart shall mend'
my shaking hands hold this bottle of pills
if i swallow them imagine the thrills
death calls for me to join him in this game
this horrid game of guilt and shame
i can't imagine the joys death shall bring
and the most beautiful song it will sing
will he see all the wonderful things i could be
or will he destroy me, beat me, maybe rape me
i can't just walk away from his sweet stare
maybe he will save me from this state of despair
will my heart be the hero to save me today
and help me thing of reasons to stay
how am i supposed to love someone who isnt even there?
how am i supposed to love someone who doesnt even care?
it takes time to fall in love buts its hard,
when theres no one there and your heart is scarred.
he says he feels something but is it really true,
when he tells you that he indeed loves you.
the room starts to crumble when you know that hes gone,
and you wonder where he is from dusk until dawn.
every night you stay up wishing the phone would ring,
wondering if maybe this is just a meaningless thing.
im thinking of things to write
and with myself i try not to fight
you said you wanted a poem about you
and the things to say are very few
the more i learn about you and your ways
the harder writing this gets phrase after phrase
so many words to describe you
sweet, caring, user, untrue
what you did was wrong though to me it was right
and i will remember plenty things about that night
one thing would be when you disrespected me
cause you couldnt just let me be
its like you had to do it thought i told you no
and my major reaction should have been get up and go
i was so unsure i kept stopping about to quit the game
but i couldnt leave and bare the shame
why didnt i leave when i had the chance
instead i stayed and in my head we would dance
ust take me away
away from it all
just take me away
to no longer enthral
just hold on to me
and never let go
just hold on to me
and set my world aglow
just love me forever
dont ever stop
just love me forever
and dont let me drop
the thoughts are running through my head
while tear after tear i shed.
so much pain to go through
but baby im so glad i've got you.
you've been there for me all the time
and now i dedicate to you, this rhyme.
just take me far away from here
so that your voice is all i hear.
Even though I let my feelings go,
you still dont seem to know.
I want you to feel the same way,
but those feelings you cant display.
No matter how hard I try,
I cant seem to help but cry.
You mean alot to me,
that you will never see.
Because your feelings arent the same,
but its not you that I blame.
For I am the one getting too attached,
and your heart has been latched.
do i even know what im doing now
or what has become of me and how
our of the dark i see a shadow
of someone im sure i know
she is just coming into view
as i call to her 'who are you?'
closer and closer she crawls toward me
and the easier it is getting to see
to see that she isnt just anyone
and somewhere out there she is someone
i guess she is what i need to see
that, that someone is me
life is full of twists and turns,
along with cuts and burns.
all i can seem to do,
is try and impersonate you.
you make my life hell,
and on the past can i only dwell.
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