aNt ThIs PaIn -:|- Ive Herd/Said It And I UnderStand It 2
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ive recently turned 16 and ive spent the last hour or so readin the poems and ppls stories in this column and its sumthin close to my heart so i havnt goten bored. i dunno wat it is about suicide. growin up i always thought 'omg only selfish, strange ppl who must be freaks try to kill themselves' but as ive grown and matured ive learnt that it doesnt matter who u r or wat u look like, the outside is jst a shell for wats inside. and we nerly all feel it. to actually build enuff courage to leave the ppl behind and to cause urself such great pain shows strength not weakness. i kant help u, but i can undastand u. ive felt strongly about suicide for a while now. mainly becoz of ppl contributing to my unhappiness. im averagely pretty and averagely popular and am at times overaveragely good lookin and overaveragely good frendz with all popular ppl but im also over averagely unhappy. sumtimes i loose touch with the person who i am and the devil on my shoulda says 'do it' and i try. obviously i havnt succeeded yet. im afraid of the pain. that last feeling wen ur hangin or suffocating the feelin rite before ur head pops and bursts with heat.. ouch i kant stand it i always let go. or cuttin wrists i give up before the real pain begins. but im not afraid of losing my life or moving to heaven or hell. im not afraid of hurtin the ppl i leave that i love becoz if they hadve realised my pain they cudve reduced it but they didnt. i think all these ppl eva want is to feel accepted. thats how i feel i want respect. but of course my family doesnt give it to me. ppl distance themselves from me if i tell them how i feel so i keep it to myself. thanx for readin this. if u feel the same then send me a email. please nobody hurt themselves ova this i dont wana be responsible for u aswell as myself. jst read and undastand me as i undastand u. if u are gonna email me(plz do i feel lonly wifout mail hehe) write in the 'subject' bit 'forward garden' or sumthin so i know that its not jst junkmail. thanx alot babigurl/boy
much love
toya ps- sorry this has been quite long but u culd really feel the same i dont kno.
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