1 way of saying goodbye for the last time...
Rating: PG
Quality: (Quality: Unrated)
although no1 i know will read this.
i sat in my room last night...
crying ... thinking about wot i could of done to stop this.
i was with you that night .. everything was fine ..
we were all having fun .. u guyz were so happy ...jokin around.. having a laugh... but no1 knew the night would turn to hell ..
the signs were there .. but every1 was blind ..
i feel lyk such a fool .. to think i didnt take the hug u offered me .. u wanted to comfort me .. and i didnt take it .. not knwing tht ... tht nite might have been the last nite i would eva see u again .. u were apologising to me for something that u did not have nething to do with ... --{ur such a good fwend and i love u to bits... i dont no wat id eva do without you}--
there were five of us there ... me and four of you boyz ..
y didnt i stop you...
y did you two boyz have to come back... y did u come bak to his house... maybe this was a sign... it all scares me now... how many signz appearred that night... but it still happened... it all happened and now when i look back i think of all these thingz i could of done to stop it... it hurts me to know that u came back...u found us... if u hadnt ...it wouldnt of been you... and no1 would b greiving... u should of stayed at tht partii ...and i shouldnt of left without telling u ..it wasnt a good idea... for these little mistakes... we have paid a big price ...
fck this shit i fkn hate it...u didnt deserve sht...u were all good people that had many things ahead of them in lyf...y didnt i fukin sty... if i had of been there it would of bin me.... i deserve this punishment... im so sorrry i hate myself... i love you guyz so much...even tho i only knew u for the shortes time ...u have the biggest impact on my lyf and my heart... for the guyz tht survived... im always herre for you... and never will i leave your side because u didnt deserve this... bad things happen to the best of us... if i lose you baby... i dont no wat id do... a few nights after this happened...i had not seen u in hospital as yet...and i broke down...i had to cry myself to sleep... knwoing i needed u at tht very moment coz u had always been there to help me wif problemz and guy problemz... it showed me how much i really love you and how much i really need u there by my side... if u eva got taken away from me... i would not live another day... i will fight for u... i will be here for u... i will be ur angel... just anything u ask... im so sorrry... no1 deserves this... i love you all so much...
-- { rest in peace } -- x 3
you were such beautiful people...
and for the third...
baby u were gorjuz... a beautiful young talented girl ... u didnt deserve this... neither did the otherz... im sorrry baby im sorry u had to go through this...i hope you stay peaceful now...
i love you all forever...
you will always be in my heart...
and i will never let myself forget wot i could of done to stop this...
im so sorry.. truely...with my heart...
--{xox}--
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