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Fourth grade went by slowly and fifth grade started. Sean and Mike came over and decided to make a lemonade sale with Daniel. They were squeezing the lemons when I came in and saw what they were doing. Sean asked me to join in, so I did. We setup a table to sell lemonade, but Mike and Daniel decided it was boring. It ended up being just Daniel and me. While talking to him I found out that he was in fifth grade too, and also had the exact same birthday as me. I was amazed. He thought that we were twins, but I knew it was impossible. After we sold 13 dollars worth of lemonade, he came up to my room and I showed him a picture of the kids in my old school. I told him a little bit about all of them and he told me a little bit about his. He considered me one of his best friends.
Sean stopped coming over for play dates. We were getting too old. We rode the school bus home together and I started to realize that Sean did not have cooties; instead he was a wonderful boy. He was my first crush. I started to feel afraid to talk to Sean. What if I said something he did not like? So I stopped talking to Sean.
Two years passed and I was in seventh grade. Our school had a scholarship banquet. The girls danced and the boys sang. Sarah was sitting next to me she pointed at the choir and told me that a boy was staring at me. She was pointing to Sean. Indeed, Sean was staring. A month or so went by and I started to realize that something was up with Sean. Sarah kept saying that Sean made it so obvious that he liked me and that she could tell he was afraid, so she was going to go up to him and just tell him to ask me out. I begged Sarah not to tell Sean anything, because it was embarrassing and I was not ready for a boyfriend, and neither was Sean. It was too late. I was furious. I started crying. Sean saw me crying and he asked what was wrong. I would not answer and just walked away. The next day, Sarah got an email. It was from Sean. It said something like: “I talked to Adella yesterday. She was very upset, so you better apologize to her.” That was the nicest thing anyone ever did for me.
The year went on and I was harassed 24/7. Even the princpal knew what was going on. We did not care what our classmates thought of us. We would always be good friends. Sean and I became even closer while everyone was making fun of us.
The year finally ended. Sean got a screen name, and I was planning on keeping in touch like that. Sean and I talked online the whole first half of the summer. It was really fun and nice. The second half of the summer he went to camp on the other side of the country. I would miss him and I told him that, but I was happy for him. I always wanted to go to a sleep away camp
The month went by pretty fast and I was back in school. Eighth grade had started. When I saw Sean for the first time in two months, I discovered that my feelings for him were not the same. Now I just liked him as a friend.
Sarah (the same girl who told Sean to ask me out) went to the same summer camp as Sean. She told me that Sean went out with this girl in camp, but after one day broke up with her. I was not upset at all. I actually found it sort of funny. I do not think that Sean knew that I knew about his ex girlfriend. The year started and Sean started being really mean to me. I thought that it was just his hormones. He asked me to forgive him, so I did. Then it started happening that Sean sometimes was really nice and sometimes really mean. I thought that he was moody. Rumors started spreading that Sean hates Adella, but Adella is in love with him. I never believe that he hated me, because I knew that our friendship was so strong and would never fade way. People did not believe me when I said that I did not like Sean anymore. However, I grew to deal with it after a while, maybe just because I knew that I did not like him.
I could not deal with Sean’s moody behavior. It was making me very frustrated. I decided to just ignore Sean, since that is what his actions made me think I was supposed to.
Months passed and I had not spoken to Sean. One day, Sean was online. I decided to IM him. Nothing could possibly go wrong. He blocked me. I asked this kid in my class named Jon to IM Sean and ask him why he hated me. A few minutes later, I received a email from Jon. It was the AIM conversation between Jon and Sean. It said that Sean did hate me and it was because I look and smell like shit and I am a lowlife, and that he wished that I could just go to Hell or just leave him alone because I was so annoying and that we were never friends, well we were friends but really not anymore.
I cried for hours after this. I did not know what to do. I did not do anything to Sean. Every time I saw Sean I could not believe that he said that. I could not even bare to look at his face. About a month later, Detective Adella came up with the conclusion that Jon made up all that stuff. I also got Jon to confess.
I had to apologize to Sean for being falsely accusing him. It was really hard to just go up to him and ask him to forgive me. Especially since I had not talked to him for about half a year. I ended up apologizing and we became pretty good friends for a while.
Finally the day came that I have been waiting for. We graduated Sean was valedictorian. After graduation we went on our class trip to another country. It was amazing.
After the class trip, I had to start packing for camp. I was going to the same camp that Sean went to the summer before. However, I was going first half and he second. When I came to camp, I was having a wonderful time dancing and I looked up and guess who was there. Sean, that’s correct. He ended up coming first half too. I did not communicate with him in camp at all. He was always talking to Sarah. I figured that they were now friends and maybe even going out. There seemed to be something going on that I did not know about.
On Saturday, I saw Sean walking around camp with a girl. They were going out and Sarah set them up. As you figured, Sarah thought that I still liked Sean and while she found out that I knew about Sean and his girlfriend. She thought she was comforting. It was very strange for me the first half an hour or so. But later that day I went out with this guy and he was really cool. Sadly, we only went out once. I guess we just never had a second chance. Well it did not bother me that Sean had a girlfriend. I knew we would still be just friends. He ended up talking to me once in camp. Where he told me that I should use his cellphone to call home, but besides that nothing. I figured that he had a girlfriend and did not have time to talk to me. Then again I saw him talking to all his other friends and that made me realize that he did have time to talk to me. He just did not want to be friends anymore.
One of the last days in camp, I heard him saying all these mean things about his girlfriend. I knew that they were not true, because she became my friend. I got really mad and wanted to tell her what he was saying. But I figured that it would just hurt her. So I kept my mouth shut and let them be.
I was really confused. I did not know if he hated me or liked me as a friend. I wanted to know what was going on. I wrote him a private letter telling him how I felt. I decided that the conclusion would be up to him. I ended the letter saying that if he wants to still be friend to email me and if he hates me then he will not email me, and we will lose touch.
Sean never sent me an email. Later, I found out that he really did hate me. He did not want me to know that because I would get upset. He hated me because this year I wanted to be his girlfriend so I annoyed him and stalked him. All this time he did not want to be friends anymore, but he tricked me and made me think we were on and off.
Now I am a freshman in high school. Sean and I go to different high schools, but I see him sometimes because he lives on my block. When I see him I just look away. I pretend like he is a stranger. I do not care if people still think that I like Sean when he hates me. I do not care if people think that I am an annoying stalker, because I know that it is not true. If people want to believe that fine, I really do not care because they do not know me. They just believe that Sean says.
I hope that my story taught you to not get upset about losing a friend or gossip. They are the ones missing out. They do not even know you. The people that do care for you will believe you so do not get stirred up when people call you names. Believe in yourself that is all that matters.
I changed the names for privacy.
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