1 Man, what the hell was i thinking
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Hi, i won't tell you my name for obvious reasons, i'm a boy, currently 15.
As long as i could remember when i was very young, well actually when i was a baby, i had a next door neighbour, we would always go to each others houses ever since we could walk and talk. We were best buddies, but we were really good friends, we went to the same pre-school, we went to the same school, (except when i was in kindergard and year 1 cause I had to go to a "special class" at another school, but that was the only time we went to different schools).
But we wee never in the same classes as each other, which got me ticked off a lot.
Before we finished the first grade, his parents sadly got a divorce, something that has effected our generation in the biggest way. That really made me upset cause that would mean that my friend wasn't indefentnetly my next door neighbour anymore, i could only play with him everysecond weekend, sometimes not even that, cause him being my neighbour was the only thing keeping us from being friends, nevertheless we were still good friends, even though we didn't have one or two fights, but, most friends go though one or two anyway, but that didn't effect our friendship in anyway, when i was in year two, a girl my age and school grade moved into the street as well, we got to know each other and we became good friends as well.
I say "good"friends cuase none of them wanted to be best friends, (even though we acted like it), because i didn't have many friends, at all all, i had serious, bully victim problems and i was a woose(still am mostly), so playing with my friends who lived in my street were really special moments for me(they never hangout with me at school, cause i was such a loser). That teached me early in life, that with ever popular person, there is an excepting, nice, fun, friend, but of course you had to live as close to them as i didn't, to see and know that. they were REAL popular, but they were in the popular group, if you know what i mean. As the years gone by we were always hanging out on the we ends and afternoons, doing funny, immature stuff and going in the pool and play the "nintendo 64", it was all good. I had other friends in my street who i played with, but the girl across the street and my next door neighbour(yes, he lived there every second weekend) were my two closest friends, we always had fun together.
When i reached the 5th grade, something, weird but, wonderful, happend, people at school started treating me nicely, it was a miracle, i don't know or why, but i just accepted it. I was suddenly so well liked , i get elected as a prefect of the school, amazing, From the schools most hated person to being one of the schools prefects, i was really mistified, but i accepted it anyway, cause i was never treated nicely ever, by my peers in that way. But when i reached high school(year 7). i started to realise why, they started treating me that way.
When i was three mounth into year 6, the girl acroos the street moved up north, all her friends including me, held a farwell party for her, our last moments together, were something special. i was 12 at the time.
It was sad to see her go, we got to know each other so well, and we a lot of fun experiences together. She didn't come back however, for a little visit, at our school disco(which we had every term), we had fun dancing to the music out side the school dance hall, it was silly, but fun. After that i never saw her agian. So i when through the rest of year six, with only, my next door neighbour being a close friend.
I was also closer to an other girl who lived just outside my street. But she wouldn't always want to play with me, which i understood.
But when i finished year six(end of primary school), i done something that would make me lose my friends forever, after the last day of the school year(also the last day of primary school), i decided that i wouldn't go to the house of the girl who lived just outside my street anymore. Some poeple were commenting(including the girls mother) on why i was playing with girls and that i should be playing with more boys, because of course i'm a boy.
I also thought that because i was going tona different highschool(whichhighschool starts at year 7) than anyone else in my grade at primary, i though that i should concerntrate on making close friendships with people at my up and coming highschool, BIG MISTAKE.
Yes, its a good idea to make friends at the highschool, but i was ditching my friends, some who were my friends for at lest three years. The only person i still, hang out with, (thats the word everyone my age used now, including me), was my next door neighbour, because, had known him my entire life, he was the only one who was there through thick and thin.
My high wasn't a proper one, it was a K-12 school, which was divided into primary and secondary sections, so much for getting away from the little kids, so most of the peple there had been there since primary school, which i thought was very un-fair, considering EVERYONE else would be starting year seven as new person at their "highschool". So much for feeling like i wasn't the new kid. anyway, it made it hard cause it was just like being a new kids starting at a new school in the middle of a school year or something.
I was once again the loser i was, just like i was at the begining of primary school. The school wasn't local for me, either, so people were quiet different there, than the type of people i was used to they were more, rich and snobby. It was also very small in number compair to a mormal school in the city district. so as an obvious result, i got no close friends, i only had aquaintences who were also losers like me, which sucked.
At least i still had my neighbour, which i didn't cut out of my life like a mental person, like i did everyone else. We still hung out on the weekends talking about our new schools and stuff like that. but then an other bad thing happended, he moved up north too. I couldn't believe it my bestest closest, frinend was moving so far away, it was realy sad. buti can't sya our moments together were great, we kind of soured out because we were now in didfferent schools, and we were starting to mature.
So i was now a lonly loser. i had no friends, and i didn't make any new ones, i wanted to make up with the friend si ditched, but i was too, scared, what could i say, "oh, sorry i ditchied you guys, for half a year, i hope we could be friends again", yeah right, they wouyld totoally hate me, even thugh i think they already did. So i realised how big a stupid wacko mistake i made and now i can't reverse it.
I start staying in my house for days weeks, mounths, i then developed social anxiety, i was almost always depresseed and yep it was ALL my fault.
MY parents were driven crazy about how i acted but just gave up trying about half a year ago.
Now i right to you today, having no close friends, inside my home on the computure, something which i di every day because there arn't any friends i can hang out with to pass the time.
My message i'm giving you i sthe most important you wouldn't relise how important it is unless your in a situation like mine, when it to late.
The message is: NEVER DITCH OR CUT YOUR FRIENDS OUT OF YOUR LIFE, EVEN IF ONE OF YOU MOVES TO ANOTHER SCHOOL. NEVER TAKE THEM FOR GRANTED. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW IMPORTANT THEY ARE UNTIL YOU BECOME AS LONLY AS ME, WHEN YOU NEED THEM THE MOST. YOUR FRIENDS ARE YOUR LIFE'S PERPOUSE, NEVER FORGET THAT. THE SAYING IS TRUE "YOU CAN NEVER HAVE TOO MANY FRIENDS" for the more friends the more joyful, forfulling and porpousefal your life will be, belive me, its too true, i only understood now, when it was too late, cause i've made that huge big, stupid mistake.
Thank you for reading.
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