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JENNY's STORY!!!!! (dont do anything stupid like me!!!)
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I was really depressed for about a month or two, I could handle it and all but then about 3 weeks ago i had a fight with one of my really good guy friends, we got all mad at each other and that really got me down, but I mean we were still friends so yeah I could handle it, then one of my best friends all of a sudden OD on sudafed trying to kill herself, she was hinting around saying she was cutting and i was telling her not to, but ya know she didnt listen (this was a week ago) then we called her at like 11:00 pm me and my friend and the guy i had a fight with and we had her put her dad on teh phone and we told him, and they took her to ER and me and my friend (one of the pople on the phone) were crying all night we couldsnt stop becuz we were so scared and worried( i was sleeping over at her house) then i mean through out that week things were okay, but i mean i hadnt been sleeping well for the past month or so i couldnt concentate on my work and everything was very stressful. Also one of my best friends and I both liked the same guy and he both liked us and we were all stressed about that. Then just this week everything got out of hand and hard to handle, i took like 3 tablespoons of night quill before bed (so i could sleep or was it cause i was trying to kill myslef i dont know). Then on tuesday hey the guy i liked asked me out, cause my friend only wanted to get to know him better. so that was good and all but did it really help with all this shit going on...NO! then on tuesday i was fine. But the next day on Wed the day before thanksgiving i couldnt take it, when i got home from school i decided to take some MEDS. cause ya know it would help get my mind off all the other shit. So i took 3 benadryls, 4 tablespoons of cough syrup and 2 Ibprofins. Then i was planning on going to my boyfriends house with one of my friends because her boyfriend was gonna be there too. So i mean she came over and i guess the MEDS started kicking in and i couldnt think right and people kept calling me cause we were trying to figure out our plans and i kept saying let me call u back and i would forget and they would call back and be like why didnt u call, so i wasnt feeling good at all. Then before i left to go to my BF's house i took another benadryl. then when i go there i didnt talk much at all and im usually a really outgoing and hyper person so they could tell something was wrong, but i just said everything was ok. Then i stayed there till 11:00 and i got home still feeling really shity and took 4 more benadryls...not a good idea but i didnt care i didnt feel like living.....so i felt so crapy and i fell asleep in not that long. Then when i woke up the next morning (thanksgiving) i felt all dizzy like i had a hangover, which i sorta did on benadryl. so i mean i was ok though, but my brother was annoying the hell out of me so i went upstairs to my stash of benadryl and took 3, which meant i took 11 benadryls in less than 24 hours. I felt crapy. i couldnt eat mcuh, and when i did i thought i would barf it up my stomach couldnt handle anything. Then my grandma went home and i got on AIM and i was talking to people and hinting around and they got the general idea. but i didnt tell anyone about the MEDS. till today. so i told my one frined that was also suicidal but was ok and she understood and i told my BF, and i mean Im ok now. but i am afraid to be alone because of what i might do, i still think about doing stuff or taking more MEDS. but i know that just makes me feel sick, but it also taked my mind off my other pain becuz i dont pay attention to anything. my friends care which makes me feel like i mean something to them so i am trying my best not to do anyting more to myself. also to everyone that is suicidal its not the best way getting out but it is easy, but it hurts people that care about you, even thou u may think no one does, there has to be someone that does and God does. so please think about it alot before u do somthing stupid like me.
-JENNY-
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