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Why i attempted suicide
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Life has been a downward spiral since i started school and relized that i was gonna be a doomed loner for rest of my life. From grade 1 till grade 6 i had no friends well maybe one once in a while in a grade. I did not show this side to my parents and they figured "she's fine it's okay if she doesnt' have many friends" well to me it wasn't i cried when i was in the bathroom and whenever i was alone. One of the things that really hurt was when i was in grade 7 and i had a friend i mean she and i talked and hung out and she told me like 2-3 months later that the only reason that she was my friend was because she pitied me. That hurt soo much. She also told me that other classmates in my class had actually gone up to her and told her "don't be friends with her she's a loner" and tried to talk her out of being my friend. that was one of my hardest years but by then i had started to cope. i jsut gave up on most thigns and got barely passing grades. my parents were obviously pissed and constantly chewed me out. Things really looked up in secondary school from grade 8-11 which is now i have friends i mean i have friends that like me for me. i have best friends that care. stick it out. things turn better eventually. I was online alot and i met a guy online. He was nice and i started to like him. He's a really nice guy in cali and we started to phone each other every day. my phone bill racked up to 3000 dollars or so. my parents were pissed. these bills came over time and each time my parents would yell at me and my mom would cry saying "why dnt' u listen to us do u want to break up this family?" i went into complete depression and decided that i wanted to die. to get out of this stuipid life. it had a crappy begainning and those 3 years + of friends and parties were probaley all just a trap to lure me into a black hole. my grades were falling very badly. i started to skip school and got caught i was putting my parents thru so much disgrace. i jstu wanted to end it all so one day i started to pop pills. i had 15 aspirin that didn't work so i started to pop randomn pills over time. and one day i had 30+ aspirin. it too didn't work. i just didnt' wanna live another day. yet here i am now alive. because i didnt' want to slit my wrists. y? because i was scared, of the pain of how much blood there would be and how to hide it. obviously i had lots of tiem to think coz since i was like 7 i had begun to plan my death. i just want to tell u ppl because well. if ur reading about this. then u obviously care and would like help. i know i did. If u would like to get some advice or just overall chat email me or aim me.
email jie_ya@hotmail.com
aim Fannie2415
plz if ur having problems msg me i wanna show u that no matter what life is worth living. if i can do it u can too. i knwo what it's like to have a family that yells at u and my father kicked and punched at me. life is not easy b/f and g/f will come and go but we need to live on.
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